work....work...work

Ever have that job that you hate....you just can't bring yourself to get out of bed and go to it? Somedays are like that for me. It has been happening alot more often then it used to. Its hard to go to a job where you have to convince the people you are talking to that your company is legit, caring, compassionate, blah, blah, blah, especially when you don't actually indulge in that line of thinking yourself. Its hard to work in a place where you had such high hopes in the beginning. I can see myself in the first few weeks before and after I started. I was having daydreams of all these 70's love children holding hands and skipping through the green grass barefoot. Then reality took a nice hard slap in the face. Believe it or not a christian company is not all that different from the secular world. You still have the fake people who would do anything to get you fired/demoted, etc but are sweet as sugar to your face. If anything I believe its worse because you are under the impression that things will be better here. They have to be don't they? After all everyone is a lover of Christ and therefore are living their lives and behaving in a Christ like manner. Right?! WRONG! Sometimes I wish that we could strip away all the lies and pretenses so that people have no choice but to act exactly as they really are. That there is no such thing as lying, and pretenses. Sometimes I talk to God on my way home or to work and ask him why am I here in this place at this time? Why aren't I doing what I know and love? And all I get is silence. I asked my pastor once and he said maybe I wasn't listening close enough. Being a "baby christian" like so many people call me, I often wonder if I will ever "get it" Anyway, that is my rant for the evening....time to go home to my wonderful husband. I always thank God for that!

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Nic said…
Do you honestly believe that there is a dream job out there? Come on kiddo! All jobs bite - All jobs have people that lie - All jobs look good in the beginning and go downhill - ALL jobs are JOBS. Maybe you need to start thinking outside your box. Maybe it is not everyone else that has issues with you. Maybe not many really care about the way you are and your work ethics. Maybe, just maybe, God put you here to learn something about yourself. This is NOT the secular world and you should be thankful for what you have.
8:46 AM
Sara said…
I think the real difference between working in a secular place and a Christian place is there is more honesty in the secular place. Sure, there is backbitting and underhandedness and lying, but people are honest about it. I worked as a waitress once and the staff was basicaly the scum of the earth. But they were okay with that and acknowldged it. It was easier to be a Christian there because by not engaging in those activities, I stood out. Working at a Christian place (and I've worked at others as well) there is less honesty and more holier-than-thou attitudes.

What is really sad is when you know that "ideals" are in the right place, that many in leadership are stirving for those ideals and doing a good job of it, but the lower levels are not, won't, have no intention of ever and you get stuck at the bottom.
2:40 PM
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