Fire-N-Ice

I have an unhealthy obsession, well 1 of many I care not to share. I am ashamed to admit I am an avid viewer of The Real Housewives of Orange County. I don't want the New York or New Jersey wives, I will sometimes check out the Atlanta wives, they are just funny because here they are supposed to be these wealthy women who have it all and they act like a bunch of hicks! Anyway back to the Orange County gals, I love to watch them. I am just fascinated by the level of selfish, greedy, uncaring and self centered ways of not only the wives but their children and most of the people they are surrounded by. Now there are a couple of the ladies that seem to be more realistic and sensible, even possibly caring but for the most part the drama that surround these ladies are of their own making and they deserve every consequence they get. For those of you that have never watched the show, it is a group of women who live in a very secluded, private, gated community in Orange County. T...

So June is always a hard month for me. June 2nd is my sister Christine's birthday and then June 13th is the anniversary of her passing. It will be 15 years this year since she passed away from cancer. I have been going to counseling for several weeks now and one of the things we discussed recently was my sister. Even after 15 years I still struggle around this time and I asked her why. I keep thinking I should be having an easier time by now. I know I will never forget her but should I really be breaking down in tears so easily? She suggested I write a letter to my sister because maybe I hadn't finished my grieving process. She was my best friend. I have never been close to my other sisters but I was to her. I spent 11 months watching her slowly deteriorate and lose her battle with cancer. I don't think I can ever get that out of my head. I still don't understand why God had to take her. Why her, why that moment, what purpose does it serve? God has to know...

Spring is upon us which is normally the symbol of rebirth, new arrivals, and new life. In keeping with that tradition, my husband and I have found a new life. We have found a new and deeper love for the Lord and for each other. It's funny the journey life can take you on. You think you have it all figured out and you know where you are going then all of a sudden a mountain lands in front of you. So you think okay, I can scale this mountain Lord and you start climbing. You find rough areas along the way, lose your handholds sometimes but the ropes catch you and you grab on and start climbing again. You reach the summit and wow what a view. You think to yourself I made it! I knew I could do it, even though deep down you were filled with self doubt at times. So things are bebopping along at the top of your mountain and you get to slide downhill, wind in your hair, sun on your face. It is a beautiful thing! Then all of a sudden you find yourself not only at the bottom of yo...

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined." ... Thoreau. What does it mean to live your life as you have imagined? Do you go by what you imagined as a child or do live your life the way you have imagined but according to the rules of society? When I was 12 I planned my life out completely, and I even updated it at 17. Is my life the way I imagined? Not in the least, but does that mean I am not happy with how it is turning out, absolutely not. I believe everyone should start out following their dreams but as you grow and learn, as reality hits and you become an adult those dreams may shift some or even change completely, sometimes they are even forgotten or lost in the midst of surviving. When I planned my life, I knew nothing of God. Now I am a christian, I pray and converse with the Lord daily, I read my bible, although not as often as I should. We are told by preachers and ministers that God has a plan for our lives and that ...