Why?

I sometimes wonder why God created fat people. I have struggled with my weight all my life and know of lots of people that have too. What advantages are there to it? You have to pay more money for bigger clothes that are harder to find and don't necessarily look like what everyone else is wearing. You can't sit comfortably in movie theaters, amusement rides(some rides you can't even get on), airplanes, etc, etc. Probably the most annoying thing about it is the teenagers and young people that feel it is their job to point out how gross you are compared to the general public and they do it in a loud obnoxious way so as to draw attention to themselves. Most days I can feel pretty good about myself when I look in the mirror. I can say I am kind, good hearted, intelligent, funny, and do anything for those I love. But somedays I sit and daydream of the things I could accomplish if only I were thin. I don't even have to be super thin like the models....I would be happy if I could only reach a size 16. Then I could shop for clothes in virtually any store and they would actually have something that fit. Oh the energy I would have if only.....Oh the stamina I would have if only.....Oh the things my husband and I could do together if only....(wicked gleam in my eye!) Then I think about all the medical reasons I should be skinny and not fat....diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, etc. My pastor is a portly fellow and he had a diabetes scare not too long ago. He talked about it one Sunday during service and said he was going to have faith that the Lord would rid him of this disease, that and staying away from the twinkies. He has a great sense of humor.....anyway, I really don't know why I started this blog on this particular subject. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I spoke with my doctor this morning about the possibility of having the gastric bypass surgery. You see, my husband and I really want to have a baby but because of a disease I have, it makes it difficult to get pregnant. Well we saw a fertility specialist who told me to lose 25-50 pounds and he would be willing to put me on fertility drugs. Then my best friend told me to forget what he said because if God wants us to have a baby, we will whether we have the fertility drugs or not. So I am wondering how far do you trust doctors and when do you say forget it, I am going to trust God. How do you know when, what, who to listen to. I realize you listen to the Lord above all else but if you're in the middle of a heart attack, do you say I trust you Lord to do what is necessary and not call the paramedics or do you do everything in your power to get medical attention to try and save your life when in actuality the Lord is clearly saying its time to come home?
So those are my ponderings today....feel free to comment if you wish!