Fire-N-Ice

I love reading. I have always loved it and now I am very glad to see my son following in my footsteps. What I read has changed drastically over the years. When I was young I used to read the Judy Blume books, and the series about the two blonde twin sisters which for the life of me I can't remember their names. As I grew up and entered junior high and high school I started reading Anne McCaffrey, and Dean Koontz. Then the day my mom said I was old enough to read V.C. Andrews I thought I had died and gone to heaven. I had been waiting for that day since the 6th grade when a friend of mine showed me the books. I borrowed one and took it home, only to have my mom see it on the table and vehemently refuse to let me read it yet. So when I finally earned the permission I read with vengeance. I began asking for the books for all my birthdays and christmas'. Eventually by the time I got to my senior year in high school I had every book ever written by her and the original ser...

When I went outside this morning I realized what a wasted day it was going to be. It was absolutely beautiful outside. Reminded me of the Lord's magnificent power and what he creates for us on a daily basis. I was almost in tears as I walked up the sidewalk to go to work. I guess I am overcome with a case of spring fever. On days like today I start envisioning my front yard filled to brimming with beautiful flowers that I planted myself being visited by hordes of butterflies and hummingbirds. I daydream of my husband, son and I going for bike rides on Sunday afternoons to the park for a picnic lunch. I can't wait to plan and go on a vacation as a real family, just my husband, son and I. Its hard to believe I have been married for almost 7 months now. I can still remember that morning, getting ready, the jitters of anticipation and then once I got to the site of the wedding I remember with clarity the powerful cloak of peace and love that enveloped me just when my mind ...

I sometimes wonder why God created fat people. I have struggled with my weight all my life and know of lots of people that have too. What advantages are there to it? You have to pay more money for bigger clothes that are harder to find and don't necessarily look like what everyone else is wearing. You can't sit comfortably in movie theaters, amusement rides(some rides you can't even get on), airplanes, etc, etc. Probably the most annoying thing about it is the teenagers and young people that feel it is their job to point out how gross you are compared to the general public and they do it in a loud obnoxious way so as to draw attention to themselves. Most days I can feel pretty good about myself when I look in the mirror. I can say I am kind, good hearted, intelligent, funny, and do anything for those I love. But somedays I sit and daydream of the things I could accomplish if only I were thin. I don't even have to be super thin like the models....I would be happ...

Ever have that job that you hate....you just can't bring yourself to get out of bed and go to it? Somedays are like that for me. It has been happening alot more often then it used to. Its hard to go to a job where you have to convince the people you are talking to that your company is legit, caring, compassionate, blah, blah, blah, especially when you don't actually indulge in that line of thinking yourself. Its hard to work in a place where you had such high hopes in the beginning. I can see myself in the first few weeks before and after I started. I was having daydreams of all these 70's love children holding hands and skipping through the green grass barefoot. Then reality took a nice hard slap in the face. Believe it or not a christian company is not all that different from the secular world. You still have the fake people who would do anything to get you fired/demoted, etc but are sweet as sugar to your face. If anything I believe its worse because you are u...

Ever wonder why someone came up with the question "What do you want to be when you grow up?" I have lost count the number of times I have been asked that question. Its interesting that as kids we dreamed big and believed in our dreams. I don't think I have ever heard someone answer that question saying I want to work in a call center. I had big plans and dreams when I was a kid, then reality of the working world struck. Then the dreams came back when I was in college earning my oh so important associates degree. I was so sure that would take me far. Even now when I think about what I want to be, I have a never ending well of ideas and plans but nothing ever takes shape. Instead I go to work hoping to make ends meet each payday and wishing I didn't dislike my job as much as I do. Oh well, I must be patient because in the end I know it will work out beyond my wildest dreams. Although some mornings I get up wishing I had taken the safe route and gotten my teac...